Five years in paradise

Five years ago today, I woke up to find your warm body, still. After waking up suddenly, lurching out of bed, I still believe it was my soul sensing yours had left. I still wish you were here. Your gap in our lives is blaring to me every time I count your siblings to make … Continue reading Five years in paradise

The Dichotomy of Spring: Grief and Hope

As soon as the air starts turning warm and the first signs of spring start emerging, I feel it in my bones. Before my mind even catches on to what's happening, my body remembers. I start feeling anxious, nostalgic, sad because with the arrival of spring comes the cascade of memories. The odd thing is, … Continue reading The Dichotomy of Spring: Grief and Hope

More protein, more steps, more pounds, oh my!

Since losing the majority of my unwanted pounds, I've maintained my weight fairly well. I have noticed that every holiday/winter season I tend to gain about five pounds, which is fine. We should all be aiming to maintain within a range anyway. Well recently, after having gained the holiday weight as well as another five … Continue reading More protein, more steps, more pounds, oh my!

Body Image, Food, and Fitness (part 1)

I'd say it started in middle school, "it" being my super self-consciousness of my body and its shape and size. I had super long and lean legs, but my short torso tended to scrunch everything together, making me very aware that my stomach was not as long and lean as my peers' tended to be, … Continue reading Body Image, Food, and Fitness (part 1)

The same yet different paths

We both excitedly told our families we were expecting another. We both gazed in amazement at that black and white ultrasound. The sound of our babies' heartbeat made us awe at the miracle growing inside. We both endured morning sickness and heartburn and insomnia. We both felt the kicks and squirms as well as the … Continue reading The same yet different paths