It's a snowy day, this first day of 2022. We've hardly received any snow this fall/winter season, so it has been a welcome respite from the dryness. It continues to fall gently outside my window, and my children have already been sledding twice this morning. As I've sat by the fire and welcomed in a … Continue reading Living with Intentionality
As I said in my first post, I have a roller coaster relationship with food and weight. I've never been extremely overweight or underweight but I wanted to find a weight I felt my best at, while also finding that mystery of moderation with food and especially my weakness of desserts. After I had my … Continue reading Losing 45 pounds (part 2)
I'd say it started in middle school, "it" being my super self-consciousness of my body and its shape and size. I had super long and lean legs, but my short torso tended to scrunch everything together, making me very aware that my stomach was not as long and lean as my peers' tended to be, … Continue reading Body Image, Food, and Fitness (part 1)
As many of you know, I've struggled with an anxiety disorder most of my life. However, I've never wanted fear to hold me back from having experiences or from living life to the fullest. I would frequently challenge myself and push myself out of my comfort zone. For example, I'm scared of heights and my … Continue reading Reckless or Fearless?
We both excitedly told our families we were expecting another. We both gazed in amazement at that black and white ultrasound. The sound of our babies' heartbeat made us awe at the miracle growing inside. We both endured morning sickness and heartburn and insomnia. We both felt the kicks and squirms as well as the … Continue reading The same yet different paths
My son lived for 81 days, and for each of those 79 days, I traveled anywhere from 40min to an hour and a half, each way, to see him in the NICU/PICU. There were no off-days on weekends or holidays. Rain or shine, heavy traffic or light traffic, babysitter or none, sick kids at home … Continue reading Practicing Perseverance in a Pandemic
Many people throughout my life have said to me at one time or another, "You are so strong". Thank you. Truly, to the friends and strangers who have said that I am strong, thank you. I know you mean it as a genuine compliment. However, I know myself. I know I don't possess a strength … Continue reading Thank you, but I’m not strong.
I was reminded recently of one of my pet peeves. You see, once someone you love dies, you join a new world. It's the world of the bereaved. It's a club no one wants to join, but once you do, you realize something. Sometimes people in this club believe lies. Sometimes those lies are told … Continue reading Lies grieving people believe
Why am I so quick to forget? To forget the lessons you taught me. I'm so sorry. As I stood in the shower filled with anxiety over something that has proven to be a common trigger for me, I felt like I had been hit on the head with my cast iron skillet. It's as … Continue reading Not in vain
On September 28th, I was given the opportunity to share Joshua's story at the Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep Remembrance Walk. I was excited to be able to not only share Joshua's life and legacy alongside my dear friend Heidi's story, but also to offer hope to hurting parents.