As many of you know, I've struggled with an anxiety disorder most of my life. However, I've never wanted fear to hold me back from having experiences or from living life to the fullest. I would frequently challenge myself and push myself out of my comfort zone. For example, I'm scared of heights and my … Continue reading Reckless or Fearless?
The same yet different paths
We both excitedly told our families we were expecting another. We both gazed in amazement at that black and white ultrasound. The sound of our babies' heartbeat made us awe at the miracle growing inside. We both endured morning sickness and heartburn and insomnia. We both felt the kicks and squirms as well as the … Continue reading The same yet different paths
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Practicing Perseverance in a Pandemic
My son lived for 81 days, and for each of those 79 days, I traveled anywhere from 40min to an hour and a half, each way, to see him in the NICU/PICU. There were no off-days on weekends or holidays. Rain or shine, heavy traffic or light traffic, babysitter or none, sick kids at home … Continue reading Practicing Perseverance in a Pandemic
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Thank you, but I’m not strong.
Many people throughout my life have said to me at one time or another, "You are so strong". Thank you. Truly, to the friends and strangers who have said that I am strong, thank you. I know you mean it as a genuine compliment. However, I know myself. I know I don't possess a strength … Continue reading Thank you, but I’m not strong.
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Lies grieving people believe
I was reminded recently of one of my pet peeves. You see, once someone you love dies, you join a new world. It's the world of the bereaved. It's a club no one wants to join, but once you do, you realize something. Sometimes people in this club believe lies. Sometimes those lies are told … Continue reading Lies grieving people believe
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Not in vain
Why am I so quick to forget? To forget the lessons you taught me. I'm so sorry. As I stood in the shower filled with anxiety over something that has proven to be a common trigger for me, I felt like I had been hit on the head with my cast iron skillet. It's as … Continue reading Not in vain
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Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep Video
On September 28th, I was given the opportunity to share Joshua's story at the Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep Remembrance Walk. I was excited to be able to not only share Joshua's life and legacy alongside my dear friend Heidi's story, but also to offer hope to hurting parents.
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I wasn’t born this way.
I was born a very timid child. Laid back and flexible were my adjectives. Headstrong and stubborn weren't my defining characteristics. I was and still am a natural born rule follower. The kid who always did their homework even when the rest of the class didn't. The one whose guilt would eat me alive and … Continue reading I wasn’t born this way.
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I still see you
I see you in that preschool hallway, dropping you off for your first day, and playing with your brother at recess, while sharing snacks on the drive home. I see you wrestling with your older brother and climbing into your baby brother's crib. I see you jumping into the pool with your water wings … Continue reading I still see you
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Watching the sun rise
Have you ever had those mornings in your life when you wake up and feel like you're stuck in a bad dream? Like your worst nightmare has become your reality? Like there's this shadow that can't, won't go away? His nose, it was so perfect. And his beautiful wafer like lips. His pronounced jawline just … Continue reading Watching the sun rise
